All this week I have been writing about our God-given capacity for awareness and what a gift it is. If we are honest with ourselves, we will readily acknowledge that our awareness is most often not neutral. We choose to see what we want to see, to notice what is important to us, and to attend to what is most central to our agendas. Therefore, our awareness is always limited and guided by our prejudices. The essential question is this: do we want what we want, or do we want the truth? We do not answer this kind of question once and for all, but again and again. There will always be another agenda to be uncovered and a deeper level of truth to be explored. This kind of self-honesty takes a great deal of courage and faith in God’s providential goodness. Most of us carry deep wounds within our psyches because of the tramas we have endured, so we don’t trust reality, and we don’t want to live life on life’s terms. We prefer the illusory safety of our distorted narratives and beliefs. However, Yogananda tells us, “Truth is in direct correspondence to Reality.” Translation: “God” is the word we use for pure truth and ultimate reality. Spirituality is an ever-deepening willingness to let go of our prejudices in favor of truth. We can do this only because truth always points to God, and God is love.
Divine Mother,
Help me to pause
And to think again,
Do I want the truth?
And may it be so.
